Day 55: Never Have I Ever...Been That Douche That Walks Around Topless

I'm fat. Ok. I'm not fat, but I have been developing a little bit of a guy because I'm a stressed out emotional eater. I noticed the past few weeks how heavy I've been eating, and I realized how much harder I need to push my work out.

I've done P90X for about a year in 2008. Since then I've done a version of P90 that involves lifting super heavy without rest. After about 2 years, you can imagine how boring it's gotten. My routine, which I've started about a week and a half ago, involves some pretty intense shit that leaves me nauseous with almost no energy. 25 pull ups, 50 dead lifts, 50 push ups, 50 ab exercises (basically you lay on your back and swing your legs left shoulder, middle right shoulder, middle... that's one rep) 50 squat thrusts plus shoulder press, 50 box jumps and 25 pulls with as little rest and in as little sets as possible. That's my warm up. Then my regular lifting routine. All in all it takes roughly an hour without rest. And I don't rest.

The strange part is I still consume way too many calories, nor do I really care. I love food, and I refuse to cut anything out. In any case, this past week has been insanely hot and humid, which is, of course, why I felt the need to run. For those of you that know me, I HATE running. I hate it, which is ironic because I ran track in high school. However, since it was disgusting out and I'd be melting a bunch of fat away I decided to give it a whirl.

I ran for about a block and was drenched in sweat afterwards. The heat and sun were unrelenting so I gave in and decided to just join the douche bag club and run without a shirt. I could at least now use it as a rag to wipe myself down. I haven't ever really been that self-conscious before. After all, how different is it from being at a pool where guys are expected to not wear a shirt. In any case, it's probably the fastest I've ever ran. I could tell it was pretty fast because I could feel my awesome flab while I was running which made it even more awesome. I laughed at myself the entire time. I am never running in these conditions again. No thanks. Maybe at the beach, but that's different.